And then everything changed

JS is sick. He and his family are going to have to focus on that. The prospects for a normal future for them are mixed. MACE’s future is at best questionable. I have to look forward now, to see a life without MACE and all that it includes. No more convention gaming. No more March and November scrambles to get the schedule finalized. No more conventions friends and family. I will have to find a new focus for these energies, if possible.

JS is a good friend. I am hopeful that he can pull this through and make at least a moderate recovery. But based on all I am hearing, the prospects are not good. It’s not a very treatable illness. We can only hope. While he deals with that, I sit and wonder what happens to me and all that I have worked for. Can I find a place to focus my passions or am I just bring told that my life has to totally change.

2020 to 2021 has been two years of cross-roads and change and now 2022 is shaping up to be the same. I have put a lot of energies into this part of my life and they are still there. Do I just ignore them or refocus? Something new or something similar? I have to be patient and wait for this transition to play out.

I guess the waiting is the worst part of it. I can’t exactly just make any changes in life right now until I know for sure where MACE and all that is going. But I can at least look into other options. Other cons? None are out there that I really want to have anything to do with, really. More gaming? Maybe but I will have to really refine and revamp my way of gaming to adapt to modern gaming. My two year long campaigns are just not going to happen anymore. I have to be able to plan better.

My heart is broken for JS and his family. But 25 years is a good run and we all loved the events. It built a solid family of friends and gaming comrades that will never forget all the good times. It is definitely time to move on but to what is the question. For them, it’s a on going battle with illness and that is what they need to focus on. For me, I will pray and do what I can for them while at the same time move on to whatever presents itself. I can handle MACE for a little while – maybe until it has a proper sending off. But until I know what’s next, I guess I will be doing the same while adventuring into some new territory.